for 23 years i've been through so many heartbreaking events, one of the biggest is let's say i'm a broken home kid. at the beginning, it's never been easy for me dealing with such things, but things i always remember is this is not my fault, and not my responsibility to think about. eventhought for years i secretly think of it untill it broke me slowly hahaha
that's why i always keeping myself busy, like trying my best to be the smartest kid in class, exercising every day (3 hours/day), and socializing with various people are my only distractions from the heartbroken event i suffers. until i get used to it and in the end i forgives everything.
but since a year before, thanks God everything (my broken family) came back to normal. my parent already fixed everything until Finally I felt what a harmonious family is like. and turns out it's so awkward for me to receive the love from my dad, like who are you????? 🤣
and until rn eventhought i already forgive everything but i will always remember it and use it as my life lesson to build a better quality family