Sometimes it feels like a fight, but you can't win it.
Sometimes you feel like you are not normal, but you are too.
Friends are friends, but do they think you are weird?
It is stupid to think that. But you can't help it.
If people see blue. You also see red and green.
Why you see that too? And others not? Or they don't care? Why should you care? But you do.
If people say something unimportant or just for fun. You think about it and if maybe they mean something.
Like a hidden message. But they didnt say it. But still maybe.
Your head is like soup. But smile happy, so you are normal. Also if you are afraid or feel panicky.
If somebody leaves you, the reason is not important. You panic.
Why did they leave and who else will leave?
You are alone again even if you are not.
Breath in and breath out and try making yourself calm.
It is ok if you are anxious. But dont say it loud.
Emojis are nice and you love them.
Because they forgive you and dont judge you.
And they are cute. They are always ready for you even if they are not real.
But the world is not an emoji.
Maybe tell the world you are not sick, but you just see also red and green.
Maybe they still think you are weird even if they dont show it. That hurts.
Even if it should not hurt.
But maybe it still helps to tell the world about the red and green.
So that other not so weird persons are understood a little and they are also seen.
๐๐ Thank you for reading these feelings. ๐๐บ
If you have questions or if i must say something later about the topic, you can post it below. Sorry I can only reply after we get back from vacation in two weeks. I hope everybody has a nice summer!! ๐๐ฉทโค๏ธ๐ฅฐ