DOUBTS and FEARS
Lately I often get plagued by doubts and fears
and most of the time I simply don`t go in
silence, meditation, lay down, breath deep
and I avoid to feel inside of me.
I compensate by eating and watching movies
until I am so tired that I fall into the bed and
get switched of. Totally stupid, I know.
When I am with my spiritual teacher I am mostly
balanced so that I love to be confronted with
my doubts and fears by his presence. We laugh
together, I cry a lot and a lot of feelings are present.
I understand that the feelings, doubts and fears
are not the problem but my attitude towards them.
As long as there are feelings I can`t accept inside of
me, as long there is no peace.
I really want to spare my teacher/ the world with my
inconsequences and be of help for others.
It`s time for my meditation.
