Sooooooo, here's the secondd parttt, with my questions and, of course, with Me. A's answerss!!
Q. You told me, you're a devotee of Goddess Kali or Ma Kali. How did you come across our Hindu Religion? Was it just an accidental discovery? Or did you search about it? What do you like most about it? And you said you were a modern version of Aghoris, can you perhaps tell us more and as well share your experiences?
– when I was 9 I felt and discovered that I was different. I sensed entities around me not wanting to show themselves yet. But when I was 12,in 1982 I got visions and voices and then I knew who they were and one of them was kali ma. She came to me, talked to me and danced for me. Also she claimed me as her devotee, a chosen one. It was before I began my journey. Then I started to search but in our town where I lived at the moment there was nothing to search for. Also no one else from my area was into kali ma or other entities. so it was highly difficult to find anything about her. But for me I had the fortune that the source itself guided me. From 1983 till 1990 I had to do self exploration, self reflection and know my inner self. Then I started to join cults and also became a leader. Some of them were very extreme and dangerous. This lasted till 2002 and from 2002 I was again wandering and wandering alone on my path guided by kali ma and others. what is there not to like.our mother is divine is kali ma. both love and destruction. a being of chaos. as western aghori I combine western occultism with the aghori tradition. This means that I do rituals in cemeteries and also use ashes, blood and so many other things to show to kali ma that I am killing my ego, my human vessel for the higher good. The rituals are very extreme from 72 hours meditations to standing on one leg for 48 hours. I have reached shakti kali so i dont need any books, candles or whatever people use with rituals in western traditions a lot. I transcended. When I do rituals I leave my body and communicate with Kali ma and other entities as well. They give commands, I get knowledge and so much more.I can go on and on about this but i think people should ask me if they want to know more or look it up.
Q. Is there any particular smell, place or act that takes you back to your childhood? If so, what are they? What do you feel when it happens? And why? What does it signify for you? And why? How often do you find yourself thinking of your childhood?
– my childhood in the beginning was very nice and smooth. so i like the smell of my mother cooking. till today i remember. i was also bullied at school because i was different so that time was not as nice but i turned the tables very soon and from then i started to get into the hooligan and street fight scene and so on.when they bullied me they ignited my psychosis and more and i got very violent and got locked up a lot of time. Later I confronted the bullies and made sure they knew what they did. not because of violence but the knowledge of what i could do if i wanted too. bullies are so bad!
Q. Are there few things that make you feel like “The Main Character” or give that energy to you? What are they? And why do they make you feel the way you do?
– well on earth friend and family and of course my other family too from the other dimensions. They give me a constant feeling of I belong, I matter and I am. That is very comforting in endless ways.
Q. If your mood was a weather forecast, what do you think it would look like? Which weather do you think would have the longest duration and what would it represent?
– mmm now i am a very positive person but i love the cold too. I love the winter so probably it would be a snowy winter night being happy around the camp fire and enjoying myself sitting with who ever
Q. If you had to record a podcast, what type would it be of? What group would be the targeted audience? And why?
– it would be about my beliefs and my experiences and people could ask me anything about my path and about my violent past and whatever comes to their mind. I am an open book with a closed book inside. Some things need to remain a secret to others. but it would be a very wild podcast and different and people who connect with who i am or at least a little bit can speak their mind and feel less weird and maybe more accepted.
Thank youuuu, for the answersss!!! 🥹✨✨

