Itsmehhh

Sono una donna di 14 anni, e vivo in Belgio .

Parlo Francese, Olandese, Un po' di Inglese e Poco Tedesco.

Membro da più di 4 mesi. (Addetto ai lavori)

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• Qualcosa da dire al mondo!

  im sorry, sorry to be the problem, sorry, sorry i still exist, sorry,
  Im sorry i survived , sorry.
  What did i do? just tell me.
  beign the problem is ok. yes i hate myself, and do i care?
  No , no one never did. No one will ever care. atleast not about me.
  don't yall get the fk tips. Doesnt it all make sense?!
  but now i finally noticed.
  Its not me , but its the people behind me.
  No 'ones perfect and i get it. No one will ever be enough. But this isnt a book. this is realty.
  Realty where i need to escape from.
  all this.
  yall dont even deserve me as a fk "friend"
  Just know one day il never open my eyes again, il never wake up. Im left.
  And then don't come cry to me, doign like u loved me. Cause ik, ik you never did.
  And im getting sick of it. sick of me. this people and this world.
  sick of always beign the fk problem. sick of beign the drama again.
  just so yk.
  you'll never know when its my last breath

• Da bambino, sognavo...

  And I always think about you at night,
  especially at 11:11,
  because you've always been my wish.
  My wish is just for one more conversation,
  one more hug, one more kiss. I just wish for you.
  And it's a hard thing to explain how my thoughts are overwhelmed and how I wish all these thoughts could be withheld,
  but it's useless to hope for such.

  See, because as I lay there at night,
  I think about you.
  I always do, and really,
  I don't even mean to.
  But see, I lay there closing my eyes,
  and you're the first thing I see.
  I see you smiling in the picture of everything I wanted us to be.
  And really, I can't escape such thoughts.
  But I forever know that that image is false because there's no more us.

  But I wish my messages would go through so I could talk to you one more time.
  But hoping for such feels like a crime,
  but I can't help but wish. I can't help but picture one more conversation,
  one more hug, one more kiss.
  I just wish for anything from you to take me away from this reality that you made true.
  So once those familiar digits appear, I'll wish to relive that entire year."