Insecurity regarding a Discord server (Countryhumans): what should I do?

First of all, sorry if I post a lot, it's just that I enjoy it, and I want to share things about myself and things that happen to me 😭😭💖💖

Well....

About two or three hours ago, I joined a Countryhumans Discord server... It turns out there are 79 members, and—naturally, since I’m shy—even though there were "few people," I felt really self-conscious and even anxious at first. Above all, I felt insecure because I’d read that the people on the server draw incredibly well—their art is stunning... whereas my drawings are terrible. That was the first thing that made me feel insecure.

Well, the second thing that made me feel unsure was reading that some people—if not many—had been on that server for four or five years... And naturally, in this case, I’d be the new one.

The third thing that made me feel insecure was reading that they do roleplay... Personally, I’m used to roleplaying with bots—like Character.AI, and so on. Plus, I tend to write just a couple of words in roleplays, whereas they apparently write the Bible —meaning they write really long, detailed texts... That was another source of insecurity for me.

Well, the thing is, I joined, but I left Discord right away. Yeah, without even looking at what was there or anything. Just like that. It’s just that I feel really insecure about seeing what’s inside; I feel extremely self-conscious... I told myself I’d take a look when I felt ready... But the truth is, I don’t feel ready. It doesn’t make me feel secure yet. Besides, what really scares me is that if I want friends who like Countryhumans, I have to talk in the server. And that’s the part that terrifies me the most. Btw, the server is in spanish.

What should I do? I definitely don't know what to do

I understand somehow your problem. I wouldn't know either. One or two years ago, maybe even more, I joined Discord as well. Finding out it wasn't what I was looking for, I left. Only I have no idea if I only logged out, or deleted my account.

First of all, sorry if I post a lot, it's just that I enjoy it, and I want to share things about myself and things that happen to me 😭😭💖💖

Well....

About two or three hours ago, I joined a Countryhumans Discord server... It turns out there are 79 members, and—naturally, since I’m shy—even though there were "few people," I felt really self-conscious and even anxious at first. Above all, I felt insecure because I’d read that the people on the server draw incredibly well—their art is stunning... whereas my drawings are terrible. That was the first thing that made me feel insecure.

Well, the second thing that made me feel unsure was reading that some people—if not many—had been on that server for four or five years... And naturally, in this case, I’d be the new one.

The third thing that made me feel insecure was reading that they do roleplay... Personally, I’m used to roleplaying with bots—like Character.AI, and so on. Plus, I tend to write just a couple of words in roleplays, whereas they apparently write the Bible —meaning they write really long, detailed texts... That was another source of insecurity for me.

Well, the thing is, I joined, but I left Discord right away. Yeah, without even looking at what was there or anything. Just like that. It’s just that I feel really insecure about seeing what’s inside; I feel extremely self-conscious... I told myself I’d take a look when I felt ready... But the truth is, I don’t feel ready. It doesn’t make me feel secure yet. Besides, what really scares me is that if I want friends who like Countryhumans, I have to talk in the server. And that’s the part that terrifies me the most. Btw, the server is in spanish.

What should I do? I definitely don't know what to do

I think u should do what u feel comfortable bc that is the most important. Sooo if u dont feel comfortable with that Discord server u mentioned then i would NOTTT do it and just skip it now. So maybe later if u feel different u can still maybe sign up again. And if people try to get u there i would say no and just explain and it is enough so u dont HAVE to go there ofc.

And u make nice forums so i would just do that if u like it too and here most ppl are nice and write in a nice way back and only sometimes it is different but in those cases just block and report. So it is mostly safe to post on the forum and u can chat abt the topics u like. Or u can also write in topics of everybody if u think the topic is nice but always only if U like it and not if u feel like u MUST do that bc u should never do that only what feels comfortable and good. 🙂