I can’t decide Everyday life and customs

So i‘m kinda struggling with making a decision now so i just thought i‘ll make a forum bc why not so i kinda wanna have like an emo style and aesthetic but i saw youtube videos of people and they have such a cute aesthetic but now i wanna be both and can’t decide 😕 and then i thought i can just make my room look cute and dress like emo but it won’t match and what am i supposed to say if someone asks what‘s my aesthetic then 😭

I think you should make a mix of both then. There's even a name for that, 'pastel goth', I think. You could view this discussion if you want, it's pretty much about the same topic as this:
https://www.quora.com/Can-you-be-emo-with-a-pink-room-I-m-emo-and-I-like-dressing-in-dark-colors-but-my-room-is-pink-I-feel-like-it-doesn-t-look-right